Sunday

I just have to say that I have a pround moma moment. Elizabth invited her friend to church on Sunday and his partens said that he could go. He had fun at church and wants to go every week. I hope that he will be able to share with his family what he learned and mabye make his family life better. His father and older brother are into drugs and some times they sell them to. The poor kid has not chance at life. He lives with his mother, father, aunt, little brother and sister. I see him hanging with the aunt most of the time. I hope that he will contune to come to church with us and that his family will want to learn and hopefully make his family life better. I am glad that we had all those talks about telling your friends about church and she decided that she would ask him to come to church with us. That helps me to know that I need to do the same thing. I need to open my moth and I need to share the gosple too. The "book" is blue and the church is true!

Cookies

I thought that I am going to post all of the things that I bake. I tell Issac that I invented another cookie recipe and he says that I didn't invent it because I didn't get a patent for it so I told him that I am going to blog about them.I have been cooking sence I was 6 years old. I know what tasts good together and what does not. I hope that you enjoy these as much as I do. Chocolate Peanut Butter Delights 1 cup white and brown sugar ¾ cup Crisco 2 tablespoons water 2 eggs 2 teaspoons vanilla 1 teaspoon cinnamon 1 ¾ cups wheat flour 1 teaspoon salt ½ cup rolled oats 2 teaspoons Baking soda ¼ cup toffee pieces ½ cup caramels ½ cup chocolate chips ½ teaspoon baking powder ½ cup peanut butter chips Preheat oven to 350 degrees . Mix sugars Crisco and water until smooth. Add eggs and mix well. Add vanilla, cinnamon, baking powder, baking soda, salt, flour, and rolled oats mix well. Add caramels, toffee pieces, chocolate chips, and peanut butter chips. Cooke them on a cookie sheet for 20 minutes OR you can make them into cookies and bake them for 10-12 minutes. When they come out of the oven pour about 2 cups of chocolate chips and when they are melted spread them with a knife. Then drizzle with peanut butter frosting. I put them in the freezer for about 1 hour so the topping would have time to settle. Frosting: 3 tablespoons peanut butter 1 cups powder sugar 4-6 tablespoons of milk I am excited to have Thanksgiving so I can spend time with my sister and her family they are going to be staying with us. We will be going to my brtohers house and having the celebration there. We are going to be making some Thanksgiving hats for the kids. I am going to teach the kids about our reltive Govnernor William Bradford he was the guy that did the first Thanksgiving. It was fun to read about him and how it all came about. He was a very religous man and would read the bible. I am greatful for him becaue I think with out him I would not have become a member of the Church Of Jeasus Christ Of Latter day saints. I hope you all have a great Thanksgiving and remember to give thanks.

Keep On Going

Well I have decied that I need to take a look at my life and see what I need to change so that I can be happy again. In a book called On Eath As It Is In Heaven Elder Holland said this " we need to be able to put everything upon the alter and walk away". I am trying to do this I have been praying a lot that I will make the right choices in my life. I am trying to have fun times with my kids. I am trying to make the time that I spend with my kids more meaning full. I need to look at the postive things in my life and not focus on the negative. That will make me more happy. The past three weeks I have been working at night and so I have not been spending as much time with my hubbie as I should have. I will be glad to be back on days for the next three weeks. Then we will be able to spend more much needed time togather. I have been feeling so tired lately with all that is going on. I have decied that I am going to exercise Monday-Friday and that way my body will not hurt as much. I also think that it give you more energy too. I am going to keep pushing my selfe at home and try to get more work done. Next Monday I will be going in for some tests to see why my hands are numb all the time. They are going to shock my arms and then stick a needle in the mussles to see how the blood flow is. I am not looking forward to having this done because I have had it done in my leggs and I wanted to cry as a matter of fact I did cry. They are going to drug me so I will be able to handel the test. Issac will be there with me which I am glad for. With my nurves working over time that is why it hurts so bad to have the test done. I hope to get some answers so I can start feeling better. If it is what they think it is I will have to have surgery to repair it. I am not looking forward to having surgry, but I do want to feel better. I hate not being able to do things that most people can do. There are times that my arms get so week that I can't finish what I am doing. I also have a hard time opening things. I have been waring braces to bed every night to see if that will help. I just hope and pray that I will be able to get some answers. I have been trying to work really hard so I can get my full raise. We have went up 20 points in 6 weeks (that hardley happends). That is so good we are no longer at the bottom of the pack we have moved up to the middle of the pack so that is good. I really do enjoy working at the Olive Garden. I honestly do not know what I would do if I didn't work. The kids are doing great! Elizabeth is recovering great from her surgery she even told me today that she was glad that she got to have surgery. Crazy girl! but I still love her. I do the reading minutes for her class and she has the most reading minutes for her class. Alex has had to be put on three differnt medications to stop him from being so conjested. His dr. thinks that he has acid reflux. His tummy hurts so his throute will burn and then he will get a runny nose. He is still enjoying school and I think that he will have the same teacher this next year. Rebecca has alergies so he has to take a Clartin every day she is getting better at taking them. I hope that one day she will get fater at doing things instead of taking a long time to do things. I hope you all are having a great day!

My Children

I have been having some time this week becuase I had surgery. My kids went to my mother in laws house to spend 5 days with her. She is spoiling them rotten, but that is ok that is what grandmas do. I have not really taken the time latley to talk about them and ay how I feel about them. I love them all they are so special to me. Alex I do not know why, but I have decied that I like to call him Pedro and he likes to tell me that, that is not his name. He is so cute and has some quirky things about him that make up who he is. He is very shy, but most of it is because I think that he wants to be in charge of the situation that he is in. He is getting much better though. He LOVES going to scouts and his leader makes him talk loud so they all can hear what he has to say. He loves to build things and is very creative. He is good to make sure that Becca is not left out of anything and some of the time he will do her work so he will be able to do something else with his sisters. I have to tell him that she needs to lean how to do those things by her self or she will never learn how. He is really good at reading and will somethimes read to Becca. In fact he had the higest reading minuites in his class for October. He is beging to get some ideas about the church and likes it when we go to Sharlees once a moth and he gets to give the FHE lesson he gets really happy. Last month we were in charge of doing it and he wanted to be in charge of reading the book "You are Special" (great book if you have not read it you should). It was long and I thought he should not read it all he got really mad and wanted to read it so I decided that we could take turns reading it. That made him happy. I told him that he would have to read it loud if he wanted to read it. He did ok. He is not so good at counting money though so we need to work on that with him so he will not become like me and get behind in math like I did. He is also having a hard time when he has to carrie the one over he forgets to add that in. Elizabeth She only likes to be called by her full name and she will make sure that she tells you that just in case you forgot. She is a great friend to all and likes to have everyone at school be her friend. She gets sad if she is not liked by all. She was chosen for an award at school she got to eat Chick Fila at school. Her teacher said that she was putting "First Things First" by helping other students do the monkey bars the whole recess insted on playing. She was super stoked about that. She loves to draw, color and write stories. She likes to make things for you and give them to you. She was really happy because for the month of October she had the higest reading minuites for her class. She gets mad when she does not get 100% on her math tests. She is also really good at spelling and I have been forgetting to pratice with her and she is still getting 100% on them. I think that she is a great help to her teacher. She seems so much taller than most of the kids in her class. She looks so BIG compaired to her desk. The desk looks so tinny. She will be a great leader someday and I think if she goes on a mission like she said that she wants to she will do a great job. She would love to take dance or piano lessons. If I had the extra money I would let her do it I keep telling her that I will let her do it when we have money. I have also taught her a few dance moves and I think that has helped her for now. Becca She is still SUPER SLOW with EVERYTHING I know that I was like that some times with my mom I do not know how she put up with me. Sometimes I want to spank her. It should not take someone 4 hours to put away there laundry. She has a hard time brushing her teeth. She does not like the tooth past no matter what kind I buy I have bought 4 differnt kinds so now she just has to use the kind that there is in the coupboard. I have had to pin her to the floor a few times to brush her teeth. She is learning her numbers and how to read and loves to read to me. I will admit that I am not the best at reading with her because of work, but that has changed so I will be able to help her more. She too like to color and draw. She will cry real easy over things and I have to tell her that she needs to not cry. I am trying not to treat her like she is youngest so she will not act like a baby somethimes I think it is working. I am glad that she was sent to our family. She is a very sweet girl. Like Alex she is shy, but just not as bad. I hope that you are all having a good December and will remeber the "reason for the season". We were able to go to temple square last weekend to see the lights and ride the train. It was lots of fun. We heard the Luke 2 storie with a nativity. It was awsome!

When Life Throws You a Curve Ball Sometimes You Cry!

So Issac and I got insurance at the begining of the year and about a month ago I finally called my OB to see if he would take my insurance and they did. I was so happy because I didn't want to have to search high and low to find another dr. He had delivered all of my kids and I wanted to keep seeing him. He jokely got after me and said that he wanted me to go and see and ENT about my Nodule on my right thyroid. I decied that he was right so I decied that I had better schdule to see the Dr. he ordered me to have an untra sound done so I was thinking if I could see him then I would be able to go to St. Marks Hospitle and have it done. My dr. also found a lump in my right brest so he suggested a dr that I should go and see so I go and see him and get told when I get there that I will not be able to have surgery with him, but that I could still see the dr. he orders an untra sound for me to so I schdule them at the same hospitle for the same day. I had waited a week and then I go into have the appoitment, but only to find out that I can not have it done at that hospitle because they do not except my insurance. So I had a nervours breakdown with the lady she was very understanding and offered to call another hospitle to set it up for me that made me feel better. I was gald I only had to wait 1 more day, but I was still upset. I had to go to talk to both of the dr.'s offices and have them fax a referal to Jordan Vally Hospitle and of course when I wanted to talk to them it was luch time. I waited outside of the brest dr.'s office untile they came back from lunch. I tried calling the other dr and could not get a hold of them until later because they were out to lunch. So I go and get both of the untra sounds done and find out that the lump is just a growth and so I wait to hear from the brest dr. about what he wants to do and of cource he want to do surgery so I call today to find a dr. at Jordan Valley and they tell me that I can't be seen unless they get a refferal faxed over to them from my dr. Meanwhile I have found out that my Thyroid Nodule was bigger and they want to do a guided MRI needle stick and take out some fliud to find out if I have cancer or not. So now I am torren as what to do because that Dr. can not help me any more and if I go and see another dr. I have to wait three weeks, but if I do not have cancer then I will be ok and they will just monitor and see if it is getting bigger. I have decied that I am going to go and have the MRI done and I have schduled to see the new dr. in three weeks. It does bug me some times so I kind of want to take it out, but I really want to know how big it had gotten in 6 years (that was the last time I had it checked) because if it got doubble in size in 6 years then I should have it taken out. I am also going to go to another OB that takes my insurance so I can have a hysterctomy. My grandmother died of ovarian cancer 9 years ago so I would like to not get it and I really should not have any more kids because I could die carring the baby. My other OB told me to wait a few months and see how my cycles go because he thinks I have intramertiosis so he thinks that when I am having a cycle then I would not have to have the pain. I do not want to be on the drugs that you have to take for that, but my grandmother has been on them for 50 years and she is still alive and well and 92 years old so if she can do it so can I. I am greatful that I have insurance to help pay for all of this, but I am not going to say that this has been easy I have cried a lot, but I know that I am strong and I know that I can get threw this. I can figure out what is wrong and make it better. I have learned that you just have to say postivie about everything and then it will be eaiser for you. No matter what curve ball gets throwen at you it is how you choose to handle the situation that makes you a stronger person.

Alex surgery

Alex had to have surgery on Monday. He had a deviated septum. He kept getting lots of runny noses and would sneeze a lot. It would get so bad that he would then get an eye infection. When it became January of this year it was bad. He was taking a decongestant 3 times a day and a nasal spray once a day. That did not seem to help so then his pediatrician put him on an asthma medication and that didn’t help so he told me to call his ENT and try to see him. We had to wait a month to get into see him. Can I just say that I LOVE Dr. Albert Park!!!! He is the best. When we were there of course Alex had nothing wrong with him so the Dr. ordered and MRI to be done he wanted to have it done that day so Alex would not have to come back. They were able to get us in that day we had to wait about 45 minutes, but I was glad that we could get in. The MRI came back that there was nothing wrong that he could see. He then said that he was going to look into his nose with a camera again (this would be the 3rd time that he had done this with Alex) to see what he could see. Alex’s left side of his nose was crooked so we talked with the Dr. and he agreed to do the surgery. We decided that we would wait and talk it out so in the car Issac, me, and Alex decided that he would have the surgery. He would have to wait 3 weeks to have it. At this point I had stopped giving him all the medications so on the day of surgery Dr. was thinking that he did not need to do the surgery, but we told him that we wanted him too. The surgery was going to last 2 hours. Issac and I decided that we wanted to eat at Red Robin so he placed a ToGo order and went to pick it up. They had done some things different this time around they have a paging system to let you know when it is your turn to check in and go back to pre op. They also want you to sit there in a waiting room and not leave in case they need to call you. Which they do call you when they are ¾ of the way through the surgery. It was nice to have the nurse call me and give me an update. The Dr. came to talk with us and told us that he was pretty deviated meaning that his nose was really crooked and glad that he could fix it. I was then called back and told that I would be able to go back and see Alex that he was waking up from surgery. This was scary to me because he was not all the way awake yet he was thrashing that throwing himself all over the bed. He did have some gauze up his nose which he did pull out so the nurse had to put some presser on his nose to control the bleeding. I had to hold his arms and hands down because he wanted to make the nurse take it off. The nurse kept giving him some pain meds to calm him down because he kept crying and moving all over in the bed. The nurse was able to put some gauze over his nose they like to call it a moustache. Alex kept trying to pull it off and I would tell him that he needed to leave it on. I was also trying to keep the oxygen by his mouth so he could breathe better. Meanwhile, Issac is sitting out in the waiting room wondering when he gets to go back because it had been 30 minutes so they called back to where we were and was told he would have to wait 15 more minutes. Alex had never woken up from a surgery like that before (this was number 7). I was so scared and wanted to cry and one point, but I just needed to keep it together for his sake. There was another nurse 2 beds down who saw Alex freaking out. It was so bad that he had kicked my purse in the floor and kicked both of his socks off and got all the cords wrapped around himself. He is doing better today. Yesterday I took some saline water and squirted it up his nose to clean out the bloody mess. He has thrown up 4 times, but I think that is over due to the fact that I have not been giving him so many pain meds. I truly believe that this boy has something special to do in this life and that he is going to overcome these elements and not be sick when he is older. I think that he is going to be a great strength to his fellow man. He has the desire to serve a mission and I think he will do great at it. He will be a leader in the gospel and will help all people around him. He will be able to be a light to all he comes in contact with. I Love this boy so much! He never has a mean thing to say about anyone.

Alexander

We took Alex to see his ENT Dr. Park yesterday. We went to have him look at his nose. The Dr. was looking at his nose and of course he was having a good day. He was not really sure that anything was wrong so he had to go and have an MRI he was such a trooper he laied on the table and did not move. The Dr. said that there was nothing wrong with him. He then decided that he was going to stick a camera up his nostrolls this was the 3rd time that he was going to have this done and it was the first time that he was going to have his nose numbed. The dr. showed us that his left side was the crooked side. You could clearly see that the left side was very narrow and the right side had more room. The Dr. explaned how he was going to be doing the surgery he even drew a picture of it. It made me like him even more because he takes the time to explane how he is going to do the surgery he does not just tell you and make you do the suregery. He tells you that you can think about it. We asked him if he would be able to be off all meds if he had the surgery the Dr. responed that ideally that is what we would like to have happen, but we will have to see. he told us that Alex will not be able to blow his nose after the surgery. I told him that he really can't blow his nose anyways I made the sound that he makes when blowing his nose the Dr. laughed. The other thing that I like about the Dr. is that he comes in and shakes your hands and says it is good to see you again. I also told the Dr. that Alex told me a few months ago that he wanted his nose fixed and that he wanted to have the sirgery allready. The last time that we saw him was in 2011 so it had been a few years. The Dr. said that it should be sameday surgery, but he knows Alex and sometimes he needs more time, but I think that he is going to be a trooper and be able to pull through it. We did not schdule the surgery right away we talked about it in the car and we even asked Alex if he wanted to have the surgery and he said that he wanted to have it that is when I called to schdule it. I love Alex so much he is such a strong boy! It is too bad that he thinks that in order to get over something you need to have surgery in his case that is what you have to do.