Thursday, November 18, 2010

What to do?

I am not sure what I need to do. I have been to my OBGYN this week. I have been having a period for about 14 days for the last 3 months. I had an ultrasound and MRI done and they both came back saying that the insion from my c-section has scar tissue. I have been wanting to try and have another baby, but I think that I will not be able to have one. I think that I am going to have to have my female parts taken out so I will not be bleeding so much and so I will not be in pain. I keep having headaches all the time and that is not like me. Needless to say I have been crying all week and when I see a photo of a baby I cry too. I also feel like I have been a bad mother because I have just been wanting to lay in bed and do nothing else. I also have been feeling like I am dizzy and want to throw up. The other thing that I do not understand is that I have been having an impression that I am to have another daughter, but mabye I am not to have her in this life. I know that if I pray then I will get the right answer so until that answer comes I will just have to wait patiently and deal with the pain. I love you all!

4 comments:

Celeste said...

I am sorry you have to go through this. :( Good luck. I hope you start feeling better soon.

Sam and Barry said...

Well I hope every thing turns out ok. If you keep getting the impressions, you could think about adoption. Love Barry

meacham said...

I am also sorry to hear about what your going through. Wished I was there to just give you a hug. Remember there's a reason for everything.
Love you

Jeanie said...

What a hard thing to go through! I'm sorry you're being faced with this right now, and that you're feeling so awful. Everything will work out how it should.

 

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